A Small Victory in Authenticity

Today I let myself be myself in all my un-glorious glory.

Nathan has been home sick for most of the week with a stomach bug and a bad cold. This has meant spending four nights on his floor, being abruptly woken every hour or two to deal with vomiting or coughing or a nose that needs to be blown. This has also meant spending four days glued to his side, because when he's ill, Nathan cannot bear to be apart from me.

Needless to say, I'm a bit of a mess right now, in more ways than one.

So when my neighbor called, the extremely nice woman who works as an aide in Nathan's school, who genuinely likes Nathan, who noticed that Nathan hasn't been in school, who asked his teacher what was going on, and who then volunteered to drop off any work or papers for Nathan, when that neighbor called to ask if she could stop by and drop off a folder for him, I'll admit I went into panic mode. There I was, after three o'clock and still in my pajamas, hair pulled haphazardly up into a clip, unwashed, a big zit glowing right in the middle of my forehead, aware that all the surfaces of the house were overflowing and that Nathan was still in his pjs, too, and that they were displaying evidence of his tendency to use his sleeves as tissues.

My first thought was, how can I get out of this? My next thought was, how quickly can I pull on clothes and straighten up myself, the house and Nathan? My final thought was, I'm too tired for this.

I told her to come over, saying little more than that we were still in our pajamas.

Though I did put on a robe, I did nothing else. I fixed nothing, changed nothing, cleaned nothing. I had been dealing (mostly on my own) with a sick child for four days and I was exhausted. I didn't pretend and I didn't apologize.

I was authentic.

A small victory, to be sure, but a victory all the same.

 

 

Comments

[Cheap Kamagra]

thanks for the share

[kara]

I'm just now getting around to read this and I do hope you all are feeling better now. It's a victory and I'm feeling the satisfaction of it. Take care!

[Happily Retired Gal]

Kudos to YOU ;-)
Here's hoping Nathan recovers soon and that YOU stay healthy!!!
Hugs and blessings,

[Nicci]

Good for you! Thanks for the inspiration. I hope he is better soon.

[Hay]

Oh babes, hope your little man is much better, and you too. Hugs.
PS, You rock !

[The Other Laura]

I think this is a huge victory! Really, I want to throw you a parade. It is so hard to let go of that need to appear to be "together" all the time.

I hope Nathan's better soon and that you get some rest...