The space feels new, alive with creative possibilities.
There are walls and boundaries, yes...but also structure and safety.
There is no aimlessness, only purpose.
There is no anxiety, only action.
There is no gremlin telling me I'm not good enough, only me seeing me live up to my own expectations.
Week by week.
And when the fear arises (and it does), the fear that this will stop working and I will be left with nothing again, I pause and take a deep breath. I am learning something. I am learning that I can be trusted. So I soothe myself, reassure myself. "It's okay, honey. Even if it stops working, you'll figure out something else. You're smart. You keep your promises."
There is no chaos here, only harmony.